Letters to Yano
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How college humbled me so hard when i stepped in its domain.
I used to ace exams, participate in inter/intraschool events, be a part of top honors, and all this while giving the least effort (ik this is lowkey bragging but it's true). From elementary to highschool, everything about academics was no big deal for me. I never aimed for top 1 because i told myself that it was enough to be a part of the honor students, and with a bit of ego that i would definitely be a top student if i just put much more effort (well... ofc i still think the same, I'm sorry that I'm just telling what i truly feel). But looking at myself now, I'm on the brink of collapsing. It's not that i find the courses hard or so, i just find myself very pitiful and hopeless for not being able to change in a span of 10 months, and also the fact that i barely adapted to college life. I went into college without preparation, i took the exams without much thought(aside from the fact that the tuition is free). I also deeply admire most of my profs, they're very considerate and truly amazing, especially this omniscient professor i have, who doesn't speak only with knowledge but also with wisdom(ofc cuz she's deep within the abstract world), thank you ma'am G. I'm just disappointed of myself for not living up to their expectations. However, one thing is for sure, I am where i am supposed to be. And this part of my life ain't a mistake (I'm about to be irreg at first year💀).