Normalite Freedom Wall v2

#NFW8092 haloe okay ra di mag uni toms? TvT

#NFW8032 Good day! We interrupt the whatever-hot-topic is today on this platform/page for a pathetic entry of a severely confused boy hahahahaaha Btaw, I just wanna share something coz I literally have no one else to share this with, and I need to get this out of my system—I need to vent this out. I've pondered long and hard on this one, and the brilliant solution I came up with was to relive the day of being a miserable 4th year student, roaming the halls of CNU, and tambay sa NFW (the first page) HAHAHAHAHAHA To kick things off, work na ko ron. Paralegal for a law firm. And within this firm nako na meet ang cause sa akong confusion karon. Okay, there's this girl. She entered the scene a few months later after nako. She's super chill, outgoing, down with whatever; basically the friend you would call to commit felony together, or just throw stones into the sea on a calm evening. And that's where everything went wrong. As a person, I never really established a type or preferences on people to date. I always thought nga having a type is a double-edged sword. You are guided, since there are clear and established rules based on your type and preferences, which would greatly aid in the Odyssey of finding the right one for you. On the other hand, you are missing out on the opportunity of meeting new and awesome people who could possibly turn your world upside down— all because of your self-imposed perpetual filtering system. Anyway, I digress. Yeah, she was just a friend. Or so I thought? I mean, when I first met her, I never really shut down the possibility of falling for her. Picture perfect face, and those brown eyes that would make not looking twice a criminal offense? Yeah, right. We were inseparable right off the bat. Together, we were efficient, deadly, and most especially, we were a menace to the firm HAHAHAHAH we troll around, but we still get our tasks done. Dugay ra mi na-terminate if di pa (pero tungod lang sad siguro kay buotan kaayo among lawyers?) She's a really great friend, and an even better colleague. And I thought what was it. But feelings do really have their way of telling you that they can't be coached. I genuinely thought na we would just be really good friends. But lately, I have been coming into terms that what I feel for her extends beyond friendship. The things I am willing to do for her blatantly crosses and infringes beyond the boundary of friendship. Behind every billiard ball being pocketed on a random Tuesday, is the hopeful thought of maybe she now thinks of me the same way I do. Accompanying every flick of the lighter as we light our cigarettes, is the scary thought of watching everything go up in smoke if I told her the truth. And swallowed along with the drinks we downed on a Thursday are the lumps in my throat, and the words that never saw the opportunity of being uttered. She is a rebel. She is extraordinary. I always thought that with who I am as a person, I needed to find someone that would make me think twice rather than be spontaneous and impulsive. But with her, spontaneity is divine, and getting wasted on a Monday night is A-okay, so long as you can find the will to wake up early, and rawdog the tasks you have for Tuesday HAHAHHAHAHA pero she really is a very responsible person. Very reliable, and I am yet to see her dodge accountability. She exhibits the qualities of a daughter with parents that are proud of her, while also embodying the idea that there is more to life than the overly retold cautionary tales starred by Dos and Don'ts. They say 'always ruin the friendship'; a ruined  friendship is better than living with the recurring what ifs of what could have been if you took the leap. I am terribly confused. And I recently found out sad nga naa diay siya someone karon, not yet official but it's gonna get there for sure. And I would be genuinely happy for her. But, how does someone exactly deal with everything that I am feeling? These stuff of legends don't exactly come with a handbook, do they? Hahahahahha I only see this in movies/books/songs mn. And I hate this trope, to tell you. This, and the enemies-to-lovers one. Anyway, thanks for reading (I guess?). It did make me feel better knowing that I got it out of my system. But, I am still severely confused, and is still contemplating between telling her and getting this over with, or to let these feelings gnaw at me on my 9-5

#NFW7989 “I wasn’t even attached at the first place” ayaw mo lang mag commit ehhhh -from someone nga gisayangan ra nimo #mlw #nursing #ginamitlang

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#NFW7964 WOWERZZZ WELCOME BACKK ADMINNNN!!! ABI NAKOG MANG GHOST NAKA NAMO PAREHA ANANG USA DIRAAAA!!! bitaw musta man ka admin? HAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHAH admin: tired as fuck tapos nag away pamis akong bb hayst miss u bati na tau pls princess

#NFW7911 Guys, pa commission na mo nako pls kay ingani na jud akong palette (gikan pa nis empanada nga giorder ni mama)

#NFW7893 I uli na tawon akong tumbler kung kinsa may nakakita please lang😭 Thermoplask purple tumbler 🤧 PLEASE MALOUY MOOOOO ToT

#NFW7892 hbd junkyuuu, imy huhu

#NFW7891 I want something I can't have. I don't think I can be genuinely vulnerable around most of my closest friends after five minutes. Closest thing I have is being able to hold one of my best friends without needing to ask for permission because we talked about it before but even then I'm still hesitant to pull him into a hug and cry. I have to hold back tears whenever we meet again at our friends' birthdays because why should I ruin the atmosphere of someone else's special day? Even then, I regret holding back because I begin to crave for his assurance and his security. It sounds wrong because he's supposed to be a friend. But every night, I replay the moment and regret biting back my lip because yes my month has been shit and I need you here with me because I won't be able to see you again until another party or outing pops up for both of us. I need you to tell me that everything is okay and I'm doing great to my face. But I can't say it can I? He is supposed to be a support figure like the rest of my friends. You're never supposed to date anyone in your friend groups because it never ends well. I don't want us to end badly. I'd never forgive myself. I think that's the reason why my taste in men has changed to somewhat resemble him. My preferences had evolved to finding the next best thing because I cannot bring myself to truly want him. I need something that doesn't make me claw at my skin and rip my heart out. Closest celebrity estimate to him is Formula 1 Driver, Lando Norris, and I'm happy to divert any energy from my friend to supporting Lando both on and off track. Just as long as I'm not thinking of my friend romantically again, life will be good. Anyways, I'm seeing him again next week for another friend's birthday. I think this feeling would be buried down with lessons I have to study for midterms. Thank you cnu ig P.S: Don't tell me to ruin the friendship. There are personal reasons why we are strictly friends. He is a friend and will only be my friend as much as it pains me.

#NFW7890 dunno if what I've been feeling is burn out or I simply want to drop out? been thinking of dropping out lately honestly. I don't wanna study, just wanna work and travel all over the world.