PUP Sta. Mesa Freedom Wall
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I don't know where to put this confession, but I just decided to put it here
*This is not PUP related* pero nag take ako ng pupcet—'di nga lang nakapasa, so therefore I conclude na PUP related pa rin 'to :)
I just wanted to ask something but before that, story time muna.
Anyways, gan'to kasi birthday ng isa kong family member and nag decide yung family ko na i-celebrate nalang 'yon sa batangas—like maliligo sa beach(super daming beach doon and trust me guys, it's all worth it). Kinagabihan, may ka video call si mama na katrabaho niya which is kamag anak daw ng amo niya, gusto raw sumama sa batangas since it's his first time. I have a guts na kilala ko siya sa mukha since pumupunta kasi kami sa lugar ng amo niya pag may pagkakataon and alam ko ka-year level ko lang siya since na kwe-kwento kasi ng mama ko.
The moment na sinabi ni mama yung pangalan (that's where I knew my guts is correct). I don't want to mention his name since nakakatawa at the same time cute(it's not his real name, nickname lang siya).Papaalis na kami pero nag dalawang isip pa ako kung sasama ako since two times na actually na pumunta yung family ko doon pero sa two times na 'yon 'di ako sumama pero dahil sa makulit yung mom ko, pinagalitan pa 'ko—this time, sumama ako.
Nakarating na kami sa location na pupuntahan namin around 10 am and yes, siya nga yung gustong sumama sa amin. Pagkarating pa lang namin ng cottage, kumain na muna kami while me is nagpatugtog. Habang nagmamasid ako ng lugar ng nakaupo, nagulat nalang ako ng lumapit siya—like he sat on my right side pero 'di naman kami masiyadong magkadikit that time, may space pa din and siya is nag cecellphone that time since nakikita ko siya through my peripheral vision every time na titingin ako sa harapan.
As I mentioned nga, nagpapatugtog ako—biglang tumugtog yung "ikaw lang" na kanta ni kiyo, siyempre ako med'yo naging uneasy at the same time, let is che kasi like super awkward kasi we're not even talking to each other. The moment na dumating yung linyang "gusto ko ako lang gustooo" sumasabay siya, so ako 'di ako lumilingon sakaniya like tumitingin kasi ako sa left side ko that time, feel ko talaga that moment nagka stiff neck ako.
Second moment namin (ayun, nag assume), tanghali that time, ang tubig is high tide like tumataas. Naliligo siya that time sa likod namin (we're in the floating cottage) lumapit yung mom ko sa harap ko habang sumisigaw ng "malalim" sakaniya, since nga nasa likod siya, tumalikod din ako para makita siya and ang una kong napansin is yung suot niya—naliligo siya while he was in his polo pero soft lang naman 'yon. The moment na tiningnan ko siya sa mukha—nakatingin rin siya sa akin habang nakangiti.
I was hypnotized by his captivating smile, I never knew na there's someone who can make my heart beat in an unfamiliar yet comforting feeling I've never felt. Buong maghapon, na stuck yung smile sa loob looban ko, it feels like I was drowning not by the water—but the memory of his smile that keep flashing on my mind.
Bumabiyahe na kami pauwi, siyempre yung pag stop sa gasolinahan is normal para mag cr. Siya yung nahuling mag cr, nasa harapan lang naman ng kotse yung comfort room I mean 'di mismong literal na harap—like nasa gilid siya pero nasa harapan. The moment na paglabas niya ng cr, the first thing I noticed was his natural red cheeks from his cheeks—like teh, he's so ethereal, I don't even know if I'm jealous because I don't have those or I just wanted na to stare those natural red cheeks. Ang captivating niya, I was so starstruck while staring at him.
Dumagdag pa yung sinag ng araw sa mukha niya kaya mas naging visible yung red cheeks niya. I was so invested as if I'm watching a movie that time. Alam ko may tawag sa kanila, like tisoy ba, sila ata yung madaling mamula, super ganda ng natural red cheeks niya, siguro gawa 'yon sa pagkaligo dahil na rin sa dagat.
The moment na pagkauwi na pagkauwi palang namin gusto ko nang kunin yung cp ng mama ko para ma stalk ko yung fb niya and para mapa tugtog na yung "drop dead" ni olivia rodrigo. Kung maging jowa ko man yun, kingina ubos 'yang tracks sa yours truly ni ariana grande.
Pero, yeah the moment I stalked him sa socmed niya; he's straight as hell, yung chance ko parang government sa pilipinas—Walang wala. Mas lalo pang lumala yung admiration(ideal type lang kumbaga)ko when I get to know or watched his collection videos where he's playing his electric guitar and piano.
So yung question is, I'm the only one na kapag may nakakasamang ibang tao or guy specifically na pasok sa certain standards ko—niroromanticize ko agad yung interaction namin even though we didn't even talk to each other?? Like nagkatinginan lang kami; basta something like that.
Parang nababaliw ako kahit 'di pa siya nagpapakita ng basic human decency, and I hate myself for doing it—not because I find it weird but rather I was ashamed na I couldn't see or envision myself na I get to know people by specifically talking or approaching them first.
Submitted: July 26, 2026 8:37:50 AM UTC