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hello!
may nabasa kasi akong post dito, ano lang, it resonates with me kasi. sabi daw “what's the feeling of falling in love with someone you're apparently not supposed to be in love with?”, credits kay ate.
gusto ko lang sagutin ‘to, huhu. i had a crush during my freshman years up until the first semester of my sophomore era. we were strangers and we became friends, hindi niya alam na gusto ko siya.
palagi siyang na-kuwento sa ‘kin tungkol sa mga nagiging crush niya, from first to his crush at the moment—saksi ako sa lahat ng 'yon. and everytime he would smile with a thought of her, i’m slightly h*rt.
then, one day, he ranted sa akin. saying those what ifs. kesyo kung i-pursue pa daw niya si girl, or if maglagay siya ng madami na madaming effort, or if he waits still. and it took so long for me to reply.
i realized na masyado na siyang downbad sa girl and kahit na nandyan ako sa tabi niya ever since, hindi niya ako makikita. pang-bestfriend lang pala ako, lord?
he love her. this time, he really love her, not like the other crushes he had. i asked him one time kasi wala naman kasiguraduhan na magiging sila, sabi ko, “baka may iba pa diyan,”, tapos sabi niya, “it’s her or no one”.
that was the last straw. sabi ko, ilaban na lang niya. i’m starting to pull back, comfortable kasi ako sa kaniya and boy best friend ko siya. medyo... hindi ko na kasi matago, ayoko makagulo at i’m not immune to pain.
so, ang sagot ko sa tanong sa taas ay... it feels like playing under the sun even if it burns your skin. masaya pero masakit kaya minsan, gugustuhin mo na lang sumilong.
Submitted: October 5, 2026 11:28:10 PM +08