Wildcats Freedom Wall
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i don't know where to begin. i love you, i guess? i always have, since the beginning of the first semester. i think you might have known for a while na kay there have been times where i've been a little too obvious but i just can't help it. how can i hide my feelings when they run so deep? it's like your essence is etched into the tapestry of my every being. you're always at the back of my mind. you always linger there, in a corner specifically made for you. the other guys i have talked to before cannot compare with you and the way you made me feel.
i hope you know how amazing you are. you literally light up my day whenever i see you. i enjoy all of the moments we have with one another even if panandalian ra jud siya. even sa smallest things that you do, they make me the happiest whenever you do them. but i know my boundaries, and i know you don't mean anything behind them. oddly enough, okay ra jud sa akoa. i'm okay with staying in the stasis we are in right now, but that would be unfair for both me and you.
at the end of the day, dapat ra nako dawaton nga i'm not the person you're looking for, and that's okay. i get to spend my time with you and that has been enough for me, even if you don't see me in the light i want you to see me in.
i never use the word love romantically because of my experiences. i don't think i've ever said i've loved a person in this way but:
i think i love you, and i can't ever tell you. if somehow this makes its way to you, i just hope you accept my love for what it is. all i want is for you to please accept my most earnest feelings with a heart full of acceptance. i do not mean acceptance in the sense that you reciprocate my feelings kay that couldn't be farther from the truth, but i mean in the sense nga imo dawaton nga it is what it is. you showed your truest colors and it had led me to fall for you and the very essence of you.
you couldn't have done anything differently kay in fact, i feel like you did everything you should have, and more. you didn't do anything special, you didn't do anything or say anything to lead me on, therefore the burden i carry right now is mine and mine alone. i remember when you jokingly said nga if i were a man and attractive, you probably would've chosen me. i took that to heart. maybe in another life we would have had different circumstances. maybe we would have dated and lived a long life together. maybe in another life you could have loved me the way i loved you.
maybe in the future i'll have the guts to tell you to your face, but this will be it for now. i love you then, and i'll continue to love you more.
發表於: Sept. 11, 2024, 11:27 a.m.