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To the first girl I ever truly loved,
I’m not from NU—but she is. she’s a CTHM student from NU Manila. And even if I never walked your halls as a student, a part of me will always feel connected to that place… because of you.
Shi, you were the first person who made me believe that love could be real between two girls. You showed me that what I felt wasn’t just a phase, or confusion—it was genuine. You were genuine. You made it feel normal, beautiful, and true. You made me feel seen.
Later today is March 29. Our monthsary. I still remember that moment when I gave you my “Yes.” I remember how my heart felt like it was finally home. That day, I believed in forever. I was happy… so incredibly happy. If only I had known that one day, I’d be writing this instead.
Our relationship wasn’t perfect. I had my flaws. You had yours. But we tried. We really did. We held on even when it hurt. We loved with everything we had—until love started to feel like something we had to survive, not celebrate.
I didn’t walk away because I stopped loving you. I walked away because we were slowly breaking each other while trying to hold on. And that’s not the kind of love either of us deserves.
Letting you go was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But I loved you enough to step back. I loved you enough to not stand in your way, even if it meant standing alone.
I forgive you—for the things we said, the things we couldn’t fix. And if I ever made you feel less than what you deserve, I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me too.
I forgive you—for the hurt, the silence, the distance that grew between us. And if I ever caused you pain—if I ever made you question your worth—I’m sorry. Please forgive me too.
This is goodbye. A real one. A quiet, aching kind of goodbye.
Not because what we had meant nothing…
But because it meant so much.
Thank you for loving me, even for just a while.
I’ll carry that version of us—the good, the bad, the beautiful—with me, always.
Take care always, Shi. I hope you find the peace and love you’ve always been looking for. The kind of love that never feels like a burden
—Aki
Submitted: May 28, 2025 9:49:31 PM PST
發表於: March 5, 2026, 3:33 a.m.