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hello everyone! i really need your advice or more like assurance?? bc lately i feel like self sabotaging with my recent situation..
i have this guy friend since liceo (im also a guy, more like a closeted guy but some of my friend knows im bi) he is straight guys like very very, he was a basketball varsity and sobra ka manly nga indi mo siya ma feelan any hint of inagi. but lately, he became so assuring and looks for me every vacant ya and he wants to go home with me every after school, he wants to go out randomly on a weekend, like i mean galagaw man kami but if matabuan lang, indi nga hagaray gid. and we’re that casual close friends nga typical partners in crime ahh. pero recently du mahibi ko kay gn gaan yako bouquet sng birthday ko kay sagi ko pabati bati sa ig notes nga du kanami man gali makabaton bulak bisan laki ka. tapos after to namon birthday dinner nga papuli nako sa dorm tani, nag sakit sakit akon tiyan nga du malipong ko sng sakit ambot ano to man, te nag pila gd siya sa pharmacy kg namangkot mangkot kung ano pwede imnon kay du indi man ko mag jebbs tas tapos to gn hmbalan ya ko “du indi kagid guro mabuhi nga wala ko ay, didto nalang ko anay simo kay basi maglala pagid matyag mo” like indi ko gd na malimtan guys. after those, i thought na he is a very very good, everything nice guy, very family oriented, and everything you would want as your dream guy (yes guys maybe?? haha i like him now as i am writing this) but i just thought na indi siya pwede maluyag or ma fall sa akon??? kay ive been to his house many times before naman and i just know nga very conservative and “homophobic” iya parents kay i feel not so welcome kis’a kay medyo indi gd ko manly mag giho and all guys pa sila sa siblings. as a self sabotagerer, gina paminsar ko nga basi sala ko nga gaka luyag na siya sakon?? (or feeler kang ko guys??) and personally du gaka guilty ko kay like straight gd ni siya indi pwede mag tiko tungod sakon kay coming from a conservative fam, sala gd ya mag palangga same sex. maybe kung indi man ko sagay sugot mag lakat kami wala man siya na fall diba. so idk guys, i like him but some part of me thinks na mas better nalang guro if sa girl siya maluyag hahaha.
I KNOW GUYS NGA NEVER ASSUME UNLESS STATED but i just know the rest guro? it’s not the first time and indi man ko mag kadto di kung wala na siya nadugayan sa utok ko hahahahha.