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To the guy who broke my heart last 2024. It’s been more than 2 yrs but i still don’t know why there are times that my heart still longs for you. I was never your priority back when we were together 2 years ago. You were out there partying and hanging out with your friends while i’m alone crying as to why i was never the priority. I would probably say that you are my greatest love.
It’s been more than 2 years but here i am still single after you left me. You got eaten by your guilt to the point where you don’t wanna see me suffer anymore. You told me before that i can’t fix you, but i know for a fact that you don’t wanna change because you simply just don’t see yourself with me.
2 months after we broke up, yk that i met someone new, i thought that the new guy in my life would help me ease the pain you’ve caused me but i was wrong. Even after 2 years, all of the guys i’ve met were like you. Months after we broke up, you spreaded false informations about me saying that you were choked by our relationship. In reality i was the one who was choked to the point where i felt numb already.
You were out there partying behind my back, hugging girls on other peoples story. Still don’t get why i had to go to therapy for the things that were out of my control.
I’ve heard you have a lover, i do hope you’ll treat her well and not slander her if things get rough between you two. I don’t want her to experience the things I’ve experienced from you. i really tried my best to move on but everytime i talk to other guys, my mind still thinks that they’re also like you.
it’s also hard for me to move one when both of us live in the same district in the city. I always see you walking in the plaza while i make my fake smile whenever you see me. You transferring school after we broke up made a big impact in our old department. They spreaded lies thinking that i was the reason why you had to transfer. I endured it for a year until i decided to transfer department while you transferred school.
Both you and your ex girlfriend before me made a big impact in my life. The pain i’ve endured back when we were together still lingers in my heart. You didn’t defend me when other people bullied me because i was dating you. But i’ve heard that you’re treating your new girl better, that’s all that matters to me. I do hope that you will not make the same mistakes you did 2 years ago.
I’m happy for you but as for me, the trauma, depression and anxiety that i always feel whenever i see you can’t erase anymore. It stays in me forever, i’m 2 years now in my therapy. My psychiatrist helps me a lot in getting better. I can see that you love your course now, you seem to enjoy being a PT student.
my friends always tell me to not sneak and watch your stories anymore because it will not help me. I can’t help it, my mins still thinks that may be in another life were still together.
After we broke up, i tried to be like you. I’d always party and drink for 3 months straight until one day, god gave a me sign. I realized that i don’t wanna be like you, i want to be my own person. I do hope that i can find my soulmate even though the pain you’ve caused me will forever stay in my heart.
The anger that i have in you already vanished, my psychiatrist told me to let things be and move on. Shocking right? It took me more than 2 years to forgive you, you prolly even hate me because i told everyone the pain you’ve caused me before. But i still wish you well in life and i do hope you’ll also forgive me for the things that happened in the past. I was naive and you were my first and greatest love.