JCU Love Letters 2.0
#6188
It’s been 5 years and I still think of her… I wrote this piece about the very moment- the night we stayed up late, chatting under the stars…
“There was a girl who wanted to leave Earth. Without blinking or the slightest tremor of hesitation in her heart, she said that if aliens came down from space, that she would go with them. Her eyes were as steady as her words. It sounded as if she thought of this at least twice a day. It was as if she’d been waiting for someone to ask her this, and spoke as if those few words weighed heavy in her throat. She really meant it. I remember how she looked right through me then. I remembered how my heart gave in from that moment. I was at the mercy of a love, imprisoned by the freedom- in the expanse of my heart that her words fell perfectly into. She twisted open my locked heart when she looked away, up towards the stars.
She was my best friend and now I loved her.
I loved her on accident. I didn’t mean to. It just happened. I wish I didn’t love her. I almost felt angry with myself for it. But I’d forget so quickly and easily every time I was with her, or whenever I got a text and saw her beautiful name on my phone, or whenever I’d meet with her and be captured by her face. Everything was a reflection of something indescribable I felt- that our hearts were the same in some mysterious way. It was as if being with her was an adventure that would never end because I could never truely know who she was… but I knew she was special. She was special because she was so close to me. I felt like I had found the only person on Earth that I would ever find, who would know me for everything I wanted to be known for. She’d look at me with eyes half closed, and with a smirk that I swear I felt wrap my heart like an ancient Egyptians heart would be, embalmed for the afterlife… but our love, it would seem, was wrapped, never to see the light of day.“